ok im starting to like my layout design. it's growing on me.

the show as artshouse last night was great.

i dont really know the name but it sure hell isnt the heavy metal one.

or was it rock?

the one i went for was a hiphop one and can i just say how talented G.OD. is??

they are this group who comprises of three fellas.

really good rappers.

"diamonds in ma pockets, diamonds on ma eyes\ice? "!!

after having seen three\four groups performed (me being late again) , the show ended and i headed to have mine brkfst\lunch\dinner at MC'.

i wasnt alone of course.i wouldnt be some melancholic freak walking around alone right.

i had company :D

than i ended the day by going to town and meeting up my sch friends.

afiq.amirul.amsyar .. u get the idea.

we slacked for just a tiny bit.

than we took a MRT ride home and slacked at civic for a while and than slacked nearby home for a while.

i still think slacking is wasting time uh.

nothing productive came out of it, unless u consider eyebags productive.

TODAY, mum and I met up with sis at causeway point.

god u wont believe how bad it went!

firstly, mum took SO long to get ready.

i mean i dont mind uh. cause im like that too.

but when i asked her to get ready she just refused to

until the last minute when my sister reached the interchange.

than, we ate at this thai restaurant.

the food was ok uh.

nothing went wrong here.

moving on,

mum is so annoying when i talk to her cause she nevers gives me complete answers.

its annoying.

here i am, trying to engage with her so she isnt bored (my sis was in one shop for 45 minutes choosing tanktops) and also trying to show care and concern for whatever is going on in her life.

and her answers make me feel like she cant be bothered .

HURT, I TELL YOU!

but i dont care cause i went shopping and i bought cool stuff.

yeah.

i got a chick hp strap.

it was the bomb.

its just a chick's head and puffy lips.

and a top.

and another hp strap.

i don't know why im having this hp craze now.

i'm gonna keep it till i get my hands on a new phone.

what else...

oh tongue studs.

and stupid unneccesary that girls always buy and end up regretting.

im good, im gone.

layout.

i dont really like this new layout.
there's too many scrolling here and there.

its 7.40 in the morn and i'm wide awake.
cause i slept at 5pm yesterday.
allll the way till like 5am.

than i was doing this layout thing.
i seriously want to learn to create my own blogskin.
it seems so hard.

pffffffffffffffffffffft.

this few days, i have had the gist of knowing the feeling of satisfaction.

it seems that studying is finally paying off.

and starting it may be tough as hell since, personally, i never know where to start.

but once u do, u will get the hang of it.

and this may sound so way off hand,

but its kind of fun.

its just that, everyday, u have a sense of direction.

like okay, after sch its like.. head to civic n study. or study at home.

rather than.. after sch. no plans. hey lets go shove some weed up our systems or lets go booze till we drop.

ring any bells?

i cant wait to meet up.

i have a million things to tell you.

i just have not been hit by the fact that school starts tomorrow.

tomorrow people! tomorrow!

i can already see myself in the future, missing school.

and i think im coming to like this feeling.

this rush of anxiety yet inability to believe.

like a friend said:

"so tmrw will be the second half of the school semester in your final year

as a secondary school student. prepared for it?"

its my final year.

i have never seen it that way.

its just too fast.

so anyway, i woke up at 6pm today.

dont ask me why

ok well i slept at 5 last night. or morning for that matter.

i couldnt sleep! and this is becoming a habit.

if this goes on, i dont think school will benefit me.

so....

i have decided to take sleeping pills.

im a bit psyched about it since marilyn monroe died due to overdosing it.

but i guess popping one or two would do no harm right. right.right.

mom found out i pierced my tongue and she was all grossed out about it.

although she did react fairly well.

she even said a belly piercing would be nicer than that.

now i feel more than motivated to pierce it.

i woke up at 4 today.

and did the usual things i have been doing lately.

comp.study.comp.study.

and then i headed to civic for a while to catch up on my social life that is going to hang by a thread in july.

ughhh.

i am bored.

i feel like going out.

but its 01.31 in the night and everyone is either outside or sleeping.

i can just see myself sitting behind the wheels and riding past anywhere.

just to kill time.

kill time.

kill time.

where are you.

seriously i havent been blogging much cause i have been busy studying.

and going out.

i am really starting to get paranoid about exams and at times i feel like, damn why didnt i start feeling paranoid like in sec 3 or something. if i did, i wouldnt be struggling right now.

i have nightmares.

getting really bad results.

i know its geeky.

well i used to think it was.

i mean they are just exams.

NO THEY ARENT.

its just my future as a whole.

FUCK.

i needed to vent that out.

so like here are my exams as follows:

JULY- mid year.

SEPT- prelims

OCT- the big 'O'

i wish today was like january.

time really flies.

i dont know if you people sense it or if it's just me.

but these few years have been flying by reallly fast.

especially this year.

it cant be june. not yet.

i can still clearly remember all the things i did in february.

and i have bad memory.

well, penny for your thoughts ey.

BYE.

its been a while. i do not blog as often as before because, besides the fact that im too lazy to care, i have been doing some catching up on my studies.

hard to believe i know but i gotta do what i gotta do.

after all, every-bloody-where i turn to ppl are like " you know, the big day is getting close"

yeah i know.

tell me something i don't.

yesterday(saturday) i headed to town.

today, i had tuition in the morning and as soon as my teacher walked out of the house, i plonked myself on my bed and felt heaven again. thats what i pretty much did the whole day.

so you think im lazy? well thats just too bad cause it feels so good being lazy!

plus, i sleep late so in other words, i have about the same hours of sleep as most of you.

goodbye.

and goodbye watermelon.

still friends i hope.

saturday, 7th june 2008:



played soccer at east coast.
it was a first so despite the bad weather, i truly enjoyed myself.
thanks to the planner, afiq, everything went well.
we formed a girl's team (me,aysha,aini,atikah) and with a superb coach/goalkeeper(sidiq) we fared rather well for starters.

ahh i so enjoyed myself.
this needs to be done again.
heard me ppl?
AGAIN.

perhaps after our 'O's

and me and aysha made sandwiches. it was gone in seconds.
like they say, a hungry man is an angry man.

HAHAHA.

some pictures:

me and buddy.

touching my hair.




the girls(aysha is missing)




kicking a ball.


some guys.


more guys.


fell down.


well, that sums it all up.





i've been wanting to do something to my ever-boring hair.
so i tried this:



i have not done it.
its just a see first-kind of thing.
its short and all.
so i have my doubts.
plus mum will kill me if i snip my dreads off.
she says that long hair is beautiful and bla lala.

-__-

bye.

4 june 2008:

went to art's exhibition with the art students.

i know i don't take art but since i had nothing else to do, i'd figure i follow them.

it was rather fun. and we took a lot of pictures. especially aini. she was such a sweetheart and offered to take my photographs. she is good by the way.

here are some pictures. there are too many so i'll just post some of my favourites.

after which, we headed to yishun to celebrate sean's birthday;

it was a surprise.

we were supposedly suppose to bowl and all but on the way there, one of sean's friend, kenneth, called up safara and they were having a bloody bowling tournament.

so it got screwed up. just that nobody knew,except for me,aysha,aini and the kenneth gu

All in all, i thought of something and we just celebrated his birthday at an empty space in safara

first, we presented him will a small ass cake( really small) its not even a cake, its more of a chocolate roll, to make him all disappointed, and just as he made a wish, we smashed it against his face. it felt really good (:

than i forced everyone to take pictures looking to the side( the "mat"way) and blocked sean's view while rahmat and his dad came with the real cake. and tah dah! sean was shocked as hell.

:D

sorry i have no pictures for this cause my battery was dead by that time.

oh and after that we went OMH.

5 june 08:

stayed home and tried to mug.

6 june 08:

stayed home and mugged

tchau!

can i continue taking this sh*t from myself?
once again, my plans to go gyming got screwed up because i chose that extra 2 hours of sleep over superb, toned muscles.

yeah huh.

oh hell no.that needs to change pronto.
and can i just say that my aunt makes these delicious chinese dumplings?
they are a delicacy.
i ate four of them today.
glutinous rice.
crap.
they are fattening right??
they contain like beef,dried small little shrimps,half a huge mushroom and one chestnut.
i always save the chestnut for the last cause they are real thirst quenchers!
and i always flick the mushroom off cause its just too big.

anyway, i need some opinions/tips on belly piercings.
not that i'd not do it if people think its horrendous but its good to know.

i should have just boiled one dumpling but no, i had to boil two.
now im too full to finish the other one.

i need to go to SP's open house tml morning but i dont know if i want to go cause
1) i didnt get picked to look at the course of my choice.
2) need to wear sch U
3) idk

guess i'll let time decide.

tchau.

i'm afraid.

i'm afraid of so many things.

i don't know where to begin, or as a matter of fact,where to end.

i guess the reason for it should be because these symptoms do not come often.

the last thing i need is to talk to someone about it. How can i if i don't even know how to start?

& they'll be telling me things that i already know and reinforcing it into my head.

pfft.

like i already don't know.

fck im just afraid to love, be loved, know, trust and feel.

that sums it all up.

i just hate beating around the bush.

so there u have it.

fck everyone.

went to town with sis yesterday and man is it depressing.
everything is going at 50% discount or something.
well, at least i bought a top, making me slightly contented.


i also did my nails. express mani.

i decided to paint it something bolder this time cause im always going for safe, neutral colours



and so, this time, i decided to paint it
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SLUTTY RED :D