tick tock.

tick tock.

there goes my clock.

let it be wednesday already!

my precious . giogio.

FUUUUHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

this weekend was a BLAST.

i'd love to show & tell but i don't want to show & tell.

because certain people might see this and certain people may get into trouble.

anyways, everywhere i turn to, people are busy scavanging for what to do on new year's eve.

its like they have incorporated some mad cow disease. I mean, i wanna do something too but i'm no mad cow.

and to top things off, the marina float party thingy is cancelled. great.

i had intentions of gg to this bintan/batam(omg i actually forgot which) countdown.

it is inclusive of dinner, ferry tix, some activities, time to shop and fireworks!

but when i called to ask for enquiries, the woman said it was TOO LATE.

i hate being TOO LATE. being late, just late, on the other hand is my middle name.

haha. stephanie late gomes tay.

stephanie gomes late tay.

nah. it sounded like latte.

back to th topic : its 29th and still no plans. nada. i really wanted something a little special this year. but i guess i'll settle for anything acceptable. i mean, mine year is what i make of it right? not how i spend countdown. still, i don't think anyone is as excited for NY as i am. i mean, i made resolutions since late november! i know its insane. i just have this thing for organising my thoughts on paper. My friend said i have OCB(obsessive compulsive behaviour) because if i spell a word wrongly or something, i tend to take a whole new piece of paper and re-write it. i'll try to go green this time and thank god for 'backspace' on lappies.

i just feel so essay-ish today. but taking into thought that i have nothing else to blog about and if i do continue like now i will just sprout unnecessary stuff, im gg to end this post. but not without some pictures of course!

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

this year's christmas wasn't as jolly as last year's.
mom didn't put up the christmas tree.
neither did she make a christmas dinner with honeybaked turkey.
presents, i still recieved.
dad got me a phone.
sis got me a bag
mom got me a make-up kit

(:

this was my day. VERY SUCKY, BEST FUN I HAD IN DAYS, SUCKY.
why? i'm done asking why.

What is the most unique thing about you?
` i'm good at reading people.

Has anyone ever asked you if you were retarded?
` yes.

Who was the last person you were in a fight with?
` one loser. he bit me.

Where do you spend the majority of your time?
` home. my shrine!

How tall are you?
` 163cm i think.

What song are you totally sick of?
` what them girls like.

If you could buy anything, what would it be?
` LOVE. HAPPINESS. too bad i can't now can i?!

What is your favorite club/bar?
` too little exposure to have one.

How do you deal with stupid people?
` ignore?

Do people take advantage of you?
` yes. but this will end i promise you myself.

What show on TV do you always turn off?
` the hills. those nabey kinda tv show where ppl record their daily lives. how much more interesting can it get? love.hate.slp.eat.bitchfight. yada yada.

What cell phone are you dying to have?
` my E71 AGAIN!

Who was the first boy/girl you fell in love with?
` nathan hope graves . pri 4.

Do you wish you could be a kid again?
` I YEARN FOR IT.

Everyone has a crazy aunt or uncle, tell me about yours:
` she allowed me to smoke,drink and make out with her son in brasil.

If you only had 100.00 in your wallet, what would you spend it on?
` anything uh. a hundred gets burnt so fast.

What is your favorite board game?
` LIFE!

Do you get mad if you lose?
` VERY. im competitive

Who is someone that can push your buttons the most?
` tht loser.

Could you live without cheese?
` i dont think so. i love it. k i think i can.

If you could eliminate one word from the english vocabulary, what would it be?
` jezebel. like hello? sounds too classy for a bitch.

What is the last surprise you got?
` daddy buying hp in a short period of time.

why would i love an animal like you?

extracted from wikipedia

"Stephanie is a female name. Stephanie comes from the Greek name Stefanos (Στέφανος) meaning "crown".[1] Feminine forms of Stephen in other languages include the Italian Stefania, and the Spanish Estefanía. The form Stéphanie is from the French language.
Stefanie - (Greek) "Crowned one"

im feeling very vulnerable right now. so i'm looking through the web to find reasons why i should love myself? seems pretty dumb. but look at what i managed to get huh.

i know there is so much more to life then just staying home or slacking.

i need ZEST.

zest. zest. zest. if u keep looking at it, it looks like a weird spelling word. somewhat like vest.

sigh. i can't wait till i'm happily married.

We'd be a couple that every other boring couple will envy.

Everyday would be a different day. We'd try new things and make that our mantra in life.

We'd travel frequently.

I can't wait.

I can't wait until i'm treated like a queen.

so it was a typical thursday and i was bored out of my mind.
aysha invited me to this pub/club. i really had fun there.

we danced like no body's business. i figure its a good work out regime cause my hair was wet by the time i stopped dancing. and aysha's aunt was telling me how we should go over to her house to workout cause she has tummy trim and workout videos.

what a fabulous idea!

moving on,

men these days. i don't want to sound like a sexist but enough is enough.

i hear a lot of my guy friends telling me that girls are getting adventurous these days. doing the unthinkable. cheating and all. but over at married couple's side, its a totally different story. i've been observing around, and i see many helpless wives, sit back while their coniving, cheating husbands get all the fun.

take mum for example, she finds condom in dad's room and viagra. when asked, he claims he is keeping it for a friend. RIGHTT... cause his friend is 16 and doesnt want to get caught? what is this some kind of joke? yet i see her inviting him to her restaurant's opening and etc.

my friend's aunt is another example. her husband married a prostitute behind her back. and when she found out, the prostitute was alr having a child on the way. she filed for a divorce but her 2 children did not like the idea. so she has to sit around and suffer, hoping that history will never repeat itself.

there are just too many situations like these. all i gotta say is,

WHAT THE FUCK

if my husband ever does any of these, he's in hell. oh and i mean it. what? do i marry him and do the chores, cook for him, have children and lose my beautiful figure just to see him go shove his penis in another woman's vagina? i dont think so.

woo. that was some heavy load off my chest. not that my chest is heavy -__-

it has been stuck in my head for some time. so yeah, just a penny for your thoughts.

What's the last thing that felt good??
* dancing wildly

If you could move somewhere else, would you?
* brasil. this is a killer qn.

Are you in a good mood right now?
* yes but im sick.

Who was the last person you spoke on the phone with for over an hour?
* i sadly cant recall

Do you need to say anything to someone?
* not at th moment.

What made you sad today?
* my fever.

Do you like to make the first move??
* im really ok with it.

Do you hate it when people smoke around you?
* no. i used to.

Do you like to take walks?
* yes. nothing beats strolling down a park/beach.

Do you have to check in with your parents before you go someplace?
* no. bet they'll love that.

Do you mind being cold??
* i think its better than being hot.

Are you afraid of falling in love??
* never. im afraid of falling out of love tho.

Do you know anyone that smokes pot?
* yes!

Do you want kids?
* yezzir

Did you go out or stay in last night???
* went out.

Whats something you really want right now?
* to meet someone. and to go to the beach at night.

Do you like to text or call more?
* depends.

Could you forgive your best friend for sleeping with your bf/gf?
* i don't think i could. forgiving is easy. forgetting is hard.

Who was the last person you took a picture with??
* aysha and some prostitutes.

What upcoming event are you waiting and ready for?
* protege. but idk if im gg. im sick . and countdown '09 too!

Do you have any piercings or tattoos??
* piercings.

Do you have someone you can be your complete self around?
* yes! moozie.

Do you know anyone who's pregnant??
* yes.

HELLO! today, like any other day was superbly boring. i got up around 12 and i find it amazing considering th fact that i slept late last night. i watched a bit of tv and i came across david archuleta's music video (crush) on mtv and he is so hot. For once i have a thing for white guys. He just has this no experience, naive, never-did-anything-naughty-before look and i love that kind of males.hubba hubba. But T.I is always the winner and trey songz (their pictures are at the end of th post)

OK ! sidetracking aside, i went to swim with aysha in th evening and it was really pleasant. No scorching sun but the water was really cold! There is a gym in the complex and i didn't know up til today. So, guess i'm gg to be going there often to do some workouts(hopefully!) After our swim, we headed to cwp to get dinner and slacked a bit at civic.

On the way home, i saw my mum's friends are they forced me to walk home with them. Mum caught up with us and ya da ya da. Got home and i did my nails! they are so nice. Its a shade of red with white flowery stickers on my index finger. Oh, moozie got back from his outfield today as opposed to tml cause he has some appt to go to. They are gg Brunei on feb 14. Valentine's day. wooo what a coincidence.not. i bet its some trickery to suffocate their minds and prepare their mentally for leaving loved ones behind on important occasions. nabey.

still, im cheery as ever! bye

david archuleta

T.I

trey songz

hey everyone, i'm back!

my saturday was spent going to POPCORN PLAYA 3 with ikah, aysha and afiq. Overall, it was .. average. i preferred popcorn playa 2, After the event, we headed to zamzam @ bugis and had murtabak for dinner. yummy i must say. Right after that, afiq proceeded to haji lane to meet kaka and co. while ikah and aysha joined me to meet moozie @ taka. We had a few drinks and right after that, we took a cab home.

Along the journey, moozie asked if i wanted to drink with his cousin zack and i was like ok. I didn't know that he meant for aysha and ikah to come along. But after this misintepretation was settled, we continued drinking at vista park. I let aysha and ikah play this "swing wing" thingy at the park and they didn't like it! well, ikah said it was fun but she didn't go for second rounds. Everyone i bring there abhores it. Liyana vomited when i let her play it. Moozie had a HUGE headache, and the sisters didn't like it. Oh well, no body likes joy rides like i do i suppose. After aysha and ikah went home from the drinking session, i stayed on with moozie and got home at 7.30am. i didn't even plan to go home but i had to cause sis was locked outside her house after zouk out and the only spare keys she had was with mum at home. I got home, passed her the keys and went back out again. It was sunday by then and sunday was effing boring so i don't want to talk about it.

here are some pictures of the event :

Mine Monday was spent meeting moozie for a while and then i met my ♥heartcore girls and proceeded to bugis to have sheesha. I had fun overall and i tried sex on the beach. It didnt taste as good as i thought it would. I wanna try kamikaze aight aysha!

Here are some pictures:

im gg to sleep soon. but just before i do, i was looking at ikah's blog and found this :

it is so fcuking hilarious!!

1)Last night, did u go to sleep happy?
all i know is that i went to sleep, sleepy.

2)When was the last time you changed clothes in front of someone?
moozie's place.

3)Anyone told you a secret this week?
yes!

4) Did you have a good day yesterday?

not too bad. i mean, i always have fun as long as im not bumming at home.

5) What was the highlight of today?
crackers, movie with bad quality and maggi with giogio(:

6) Do you ever turn your cell phone off?
never.

7) What happened at 3:00am today?
i was editting my blog.

8) When was the last time you took a picture with your number 1 friend?
all th time. i can't recall.

9) Do you hate anyone?
not really.

10) Do they know who they are?
i said not really.

11) What is your favorite thing to eat with peanut butter?
jam.

12) When did you last cry?

i cant remember. i'm kind of sick of crying already. it just gets u unneccesary attention.

13) Have you ever collapsed on the bathroom floor?
yes. it was really scary. it was actually because i was high.

14) Do you have a good relationship with your mother?
yes

15) When was the last time you bought something?
hmmm, in the noon. this guy was selling door-to-door keropoks.

16) Have you ever told someone you like them?
yes. im ok with making first moves.

17) Do you continue fighting in an argument even though you know you're wrong?
at times. but i try hard to remind myself to give in.

18) Where were you just now..?

just home.

19) Is there anyone that calls you baby?

yes.

20) In the next 2 months what are you looking forward to the most?
hmmm, christmas, KL hopefully, 2009! i love NY i don't know why. it gets me so excited and i start making this resolutions and all. and my results as well, as in, which path im going to take in my studies. the anticipation kills.

21) Why?
just explained.

22) Who called you last?
aysha.

23) What are you thinking of right now?
what to wear tml.

24) When and where was the last time you partied?
with danielle! a few places actually. i miss that girl.

25) Have you ever sat and waited for someone to come online?
NO.

26) When was the last time you laughed so hard you were going to cry?
yesterday night.

27) Did you tell someone something today?
yes.

28) Do you like make-up?
i'm not going to lie , YES!

29) Do you like dressing up?

it's the best element about being a girl!

30) Have you ever considered a sex change?
the hell? no.

31) What will you buy next?
i don't know. but as long as its buying stuff, it excites me.

32) Have any wild family members?
yes! everyone back in brasil! tchia gracu!

33) Are you bored?
yes, which explains why i'm doing this.

34) What's on your mind right now?

nothing really.

35) What are you wearing?
shorts and tee.

36) Any plans for today?
i HAD plans. but were cancelled.

37) What's the connection between you and the last person that called you?
best friend.

38) What's the nicest text in your inbox say?
sigh. i deleted those.

39) What's beside you right now?
many things.

40) Where do you want to be right now?
brasil. please.

41) What is it that you find so hard to forget?
minor things.

I just home from mum's new restaurant and it looks so FAB!

Surprisingly, dad was there too and it was weird when dad and i were going home ( mum wanted to stay longer to entertain the other guests) we had to say bye to everyone and when dad said bye to mum, it was like, SUPER WEIRD.

Nevertheless, the food was awesome, there were even some straits times reporters there. When i first arrived, it was so awkward.

Mum was busy with her friends, dad was socialising with people, well, he socialises with anyone actually. Sis was with her brazilian work mates. And there i was, all alone. Blame myself cause every time mum invited me for some brazilian event, i always turned it down.

So after mum presented me to all her friends, i sat with sis and dad and other brazilians, feeling alone. But slowly, i took part in convos and talked about brazil. sigh. i miss brazil.

I know a lot of people always wanted to know how mum looks like, moreover, dad. I don't really enjoy posting pictures of my family cause well, i just find it personal but ok ok, here you go.

mum & sis. yes yes, my mum is not a black and no, brasil is not a black country only.

stranger, stranger, fabiana(mum's partner in this biz), mum, me(!), dad, sis

this is my brother, edward. serious. okay okay! he is this brazilian singer my mum hired to sing everyday. see his mini stage behind?

that's all . goodbye.

OMG! i am so happy!

talk about belated birthdays. this is super belated.
i was supposed to go and job hunt with afiq cause i heard there were some vacancies near his place, after he heard what job i wanted, he tld me the chances of getting the job were slim because those kind of jobs need recommendations from another person to get in. so i decided to leave it for another day. And again, i need to turn to 'classifieds' to find a suitable job.

I asked aini to join us but she couldn't go and i was wondering why afiq didn't want her company and then..... it was because...... he had a surprise in store for me!

THE CELEBRATION OF MY SUPER BELATED BIRTHDAY!

i felt like such a queen today. I walked where i wanted, dinner was on him(pizza hut), ordered what i wanted and so on! I felt so special. its been such a long time since i had this feeling. It was just the both of us and most people thought we were out on a date or something . But of course we werent.
While at taka, he bought famous amos cookies for me, then he kept hinting on buying a pair of shoes for me cause i dont have them(i dont like wearing shoes) but i told him i didnt want them, then he bought me to pizza hut to eat. He asked me if i knew of any pizza huts in town and i said lucky plaza but the hell this boy wouldnt believe me.

me: " pizza hut's at lucky plaza"

him: "your head. i never seen it there before. Ok, if there is pizzahut, i pay. If there isn't, you pay."

me: " Okay(secretly not having cash) but there is, i ate there with fyno before!"

him: (laughs as we get lost looking for it. but we did find it)

We had meatlover's pizza with cheese crust, 6 pieces of chicken drumlets and chicken soup. i was so full, i thought my skirt was going to tear any minute. And to think that it was enough, he bought me to mac cafe and ordered oreo cheesecake for me, mango smoothie and some free blackcurrent drink from ah gong(he works there) .
i think i put on 5 kg. and im so not eating tml. but i think im eating tml afterall cause i'm heading to mummy's new brazilian restaurant! im so proud of mum. she did it without my dad's support.

so yeah, this was my day. sorry aini, i hope you know the reason why you couldn't tag along today.

the best friend post.

this is my 'BESTFRIENDS' post.

they know the real side of me.

in no specific order whatsoever, i present to you GF no. 1.
This is Aysha. She is superb to bitch around with. And gives you all the great insights to cute guys. Also, she is very kind and matured in her thinking when she needs to. Being 18 already, she is allowed to club without me(nabey). The best feature about her would be her pearly white teeth and big boobs.

Next, i present you BF no. 2.

This is Afiq. He is the funniest person person alive besides Rob schneider. He is good in giving advices on my dates and bf's. Also, he is really sensitive for a guy and is always there to laugh or cry with you. Need a shoulder? call afiq. of course he only entertains girls. We've done plenty of shit since secondary 2. From being drunk together to getting in fights to beating eachother, we have been there, done that. oh sorry sufian u are out of my list cause you are MIA right now.

Now, presenting gf no. 3.

This is aini, nuraini, nanee. she has so many names, it confuses the hell out of me. i prefer calling her aini. Nuraini for strangers, nanee for special guys like wan and aini for beautiful, caring friends like me. haha. She is so wacko and weird. Her best feature would be her fair skin. She is good at listening but don't even think she will give you good advice cause it will go something like this :

me: "aini, i love myself"

aini: " haha. (annoying laughter). good for you!"

me: "aini, i hate myself"

aini: " haha. (annoying laughter). good for you!"

yeah she is neutral about everything.

i love them all. guys, once you read this, realise that you need to invite me to your weddings. cause mine will be in Bali and it will be an all expenses paid trip.

haha. today was a fun day, i met aysha at CWP and had dinner at banquet, then we went to the bluez and aysha got herself a too-big bangle. Following that, we headed to our usual place(civic) and slacked. Went home , and afiq was forced to send me cause i slacked later then usual. We had some heart-to-heart talk and girls, he told me he is available! any takers?

haha. KAY BYE.

this movie is awesome.
go and watch it.

today was so boring can!

was supposed to meet up aysha and aini and have some kinda movie marathon but to no avail.
they had plans of their own and it was just ME.

ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME.

so i rotted at home , and orederd macdonalds. aizat delivered the food and i tipped him 4 BUCKS!
i dont know why im so nice. he's so noisy and annoying. haha.
hopefully tml's plan goes well.
im meeting moozie to go to TTSH and then im meeting aysha and head down to esplanade for some HIP HOP performance. woo. cant wait. and hopefully i can re-pierce mine naval tml.

BYE ALL.

" i got it but i ain't giving."

i'm so bored.

i have been playing this game, called something but i forgot and it requires you to spot objects in order to move on to another level. i have been playing it since 1am & its almost 4 now.

giogio is lying in bed and she's making this bubble kind of sound which means she is dreaming.

i wonder what dogs dream about besides bones and mating. huahua.

and i wonder if they dream in black and white or in colours?

if i were a dog, and dreamt in colours, i wouldn't wanna wake up to a dull, black and white world.

bored. lets see..

i sooo have no plans for tml besides look for a job in the newspapers and paint my nails cause i peeled the nail polish off again. its some funky pink but not-too-slutty not-too-auntie sorta pink.

ho hum ho hum ho hum.

kay im going to play tetris on my phone till i fall aslp.

bye.