Daydreamer
With eyes that make you melt
He lends his coat for shelter
Plus he's there for you
When he shouldn't be
But he stays all the same
Waits for you
Then sees you through
There's no way
I could describe him
What I said is
Just what I'm hoping for

- Adele.

i don't understand how a person can NOT like sharing.

i am sick of trying to make you open up to me.

maybe u should just f off. Man, you have issues.

This isn't anything that i have been needing. This is pure bullshit.

I have to supress my feelings because of you, cause coincidentally, u can't listen too.

I don't want to share anymore.

so u can buzzz off. Go bore some other girl with your stupid daily monologues.

Rules: Once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it’s because I want to know more about you!

1. I really like my name and i even wikipedia-ed it to see the meaning which by the way, means the crowned one.

2. I'm a perfectionist. Certain things must be done this way or they shouldn't be done at all. Some of the things that i am a perfectionist over are like painting of th nails, painting as a whole actually (walls, drawings), my hair, writing neatly.

3. I think im the most competitive girl ever. I love winning, and might/will/ get angry when i lose. I guess it's because i just love proving myself to other people and i enjoy standing up for us girls. We aren't as soft as you think we are ya know-

4. I, sometimes unknowingly, think ahead of the future. For example, when i have a boyfriend i immediately think of wether my parents would like him, if his religion would coincide with mine and if we would be happy together in the long run. I do this because i do not like wasting my time and emotions on something that could only be a fling. But then again, im indecisive so at times i hang on to things that do me no good.

5. I love love love a man who knows how to cook. It isn't a necessary requirement of a partner but it is sure hell of a bonus. Nothing is sexier than a man and me stirring things up in a kitchen (:

6. I am a huge animal lover. If you have ever abused an animal, u can fuck off. How can anyone abuse something so lovable? That would be sick.

7. Shiet, we are only at 7?

8. I always wished i was either born fully Brazilian or fully Singaporean cause i hate the fact that mine family is torn into 2 different continents. Its sad. But ok, ok, i will be happy with what i have.

9. Mine ambition when i was 6 yrs old was to be the president of Brasil because i hated how it is corrupted. Now? An air stewardess and a journalist. A pyschiatrist could do the trick too.

10. I do not believe in love at first sight. Its physical attraction you morons. Have u ever heard a brad pitt-looking kinda guy falling in love with Miss swan upon gazing into her eyes? I dont think so. Don't be offended though, its everyone to their opinions.

11. I am a very weak drinker, people always think i want to get drunk but the thing is, a few sips of vodka can make my head spin like spinelli. And, i hate it when a guy gets angry when i'm drunk. He should be making sure i'm alright, not making me cry when i'm tipsy or for the matter of fact, whenever.

12. I do not like flowers and teddy bears. I dont think they have value - monetary wise or like, in a sweet way. If you want to be sweet or romantic, write something or make something. If you are going to buy something, at least buy something that doesn't die or doesn't collect dust bunnies. But hey, i still appreciate it if i get it. It's just a preference wise kinda thing.I'll just keep the bear nicely with the other 1000 bears i have in my big red box.

13. I don't like the number 13. It just sounds uneven, undividable and unglam. U could guess from here that i don't enjoy maths too.

14. I love food. BUT, i am very choosy. I don't do mutton, squids, cockles, sting rays are on a mood basis, the fruit tomato itself, cucumbers should be eaten without the mushy seeds inside etc. Yes, i am fussy.

15. I find myself rather adventurous. I have always wanted to do things like bungee jump, and drink snake's blood from thailand and omg! i want to parasail too.

16. People think i am grumpy/bored/giving bad attitude when i don't smile but it actual fact, it's just my relaxed kinda face. Am i supposed to be smiling all the time?!

17. If i had a brother, his name would be Albert. I know that because mom and dad named us after princesses of Monoco. Caroline, being the eldest.

18. I find the way men think very interesting. But a man who has ever stooped himself down low sexually( sex with prostitute/ group sex) will have a hard time getting my respect. Sex isn't a game.

19. I always prefer the truth then being lied too just to save me from getting hurt. I will appreciate it SO MUCH. seriously.

20. I am very observant. Very. I tend to notice little things like how a person grooms his/her nails, how a person types and other stuff like that that i can't think of at the moment.

21. I adore long bus rides. I have ever taken a 1 hour bus ride all the way to east coast and back, but of course, these rides can only happen if i have an mp3 with me. When i am in th bus, i tend to think alot.

22. I do not like being alone. I feel i can do things better with company around. I'm not dependant on people. I'm just saying that company is nice.

23. I aspire to be rich, not just to be earning a living. I want to be rich-rich and i have made up my mind i'm going to get there by hook or by crook.

24. I wish my family was closer, I always envisioned us talking about our daily problems with one another over dinner. But this has made me strive to ensure that my children will have a tight bond with their family in the future.

25. I am afraid of change. It makes me really nervous/doubtful. So whenever there is a change, i have really thought back and fourth about it. It explains why i'm undecisive.

WOAH, i feel so good now that this is done. So there you have it. 25 thingy majiggys about me.

stephanie~

I haven't been having the feeling of wanting to blog these past few days.

here are some pictures from CNY. its just me and sis in the cab.

I so want a nintendo wii.

On the first day i was over at Dad's bro house and i saw a wii beside the tv. There it sat, grabbing my attention. I helped myself with kwa chis and chocolates and stuffing down some packets of chewing gum in my bag when no one was seeing. My attention then moved to sis' PSP. we took turns playing bubble puzzle. But then, the battery died. Thankfully, dinner was ready by then. So i ate. I ate same thing i have been eating for the past 13 years. Curry. Prawns. Some veges. And this year, aunt turned it up a notch by cooking herbal chicken which was not to my liking.

After dinner, my attention was immediately back to eyeing the wii. So i asked uh, if it was a wii cause honestly, it looked like a modemn to me. When i knew it was defienitely a wii, abis uh. OK THAT WAS SO MALAY. i played some sports challenges with sis. Boxing, which she beat me to . Tennis, baseball, golf. MY OH MY i want that so badly!!!! Now i must/ought to/need to/ have a job. This is the purpose. I played till i felt sticky in my cheong sam top which the material did not help me in feeling better at all. -___-

I went drinking with moozie and co. after that at East Coast. Dad and sis went home. I was supposed to stay there till about 3ish but the games ate away the time real quick. So by the time i got home, I shouldnt even state the time.

When i woke up a few hours from then, My body was aching all over. I was paralyzed. Which means............ wii is a good work out game! All the more reason i should get it.

1. I can keep fit.
2. I can improve my hand eye coordination
3. I can kill time.

See? everyone should get it this instant. sigh.

What if u were with someone who had a very dirty past?
It disturbs you all the time. U manage to supress it at times but it still comes back and haunt you. Because you know supressing your feelings isn't the answer.

Would you leave this person? Or stay and wait for this feeling to die down?

i met up my classmates, or shall i say, ex-classmates at civic a while ago.
we chat up and talked about our paths in th future. and i so cant wait for our CHALET!

woooo.

i missed my jogging session again today. but this one was for the classmates. so i shouldn't be feeling guilty. I'm so psyched for tml! gg MDIS. yay.

actually, i have been having secnd doubts. I have been starting to like another course too that MDIS offers.

its non other then.....

Psychology and early childhood education. Psychology!

In addition, i think this career path is more demanding. i dont know. i'll clear mine doubts tomorrow. hopefully. nothing else to blog about. Bye.

i was reminded of something and so i asked

"do you have the key to mine heart?"

"yes baby"

"why?"

"cause i have this feeling"

"what feeling?"

"that i have the key"

-__- ♥ your imperfections.

i was looking through my photo albums, and guess what i found?

old JAPAN pictures! i miss japan. it is seriously th best country in the world after BRASIL. people are so friendly and everything is so in order. and the toilet bowls are so great. they have butt warmers and some device that washes the valala and everything.

i also saw i wacky photo of puglet. i miss puglet. i miss smelling him.

hey earthlings. its been some time since i have updated my blog reason being, well, i dont need a reason. its mine blog! (:

my week's been pretty mundane uh. i tried staying home cause i wanted to save up cash for th weekends, but with just one outing, i spent it all wayy before th weekends. anyhoos, idk if i have mentioned it in the previous post but im opting for MDIS , mass comm. i'll be heading to the campus next week to check it out.

one more reason to add on to my excitement is that.......

CNY IS COMING!

which means, money to buy 2 pair of clothes before the event and hongbao money to buy more clothes after the event. weee.

about giogio's sickly case, she just had a fever. all hail almighty! i was worried sick. she took a blood test and it turns out that she has a bit of kidney problem so she has to avoid her all time favourite food ; chicken liver ): she prolly doesnt know it yet. she also has cataritis on her left eye which means she might turn blind on the left eye in years to come. poor boobee. but she is 11 yrs old after all. these kind of things happen.

what else, what else. to my schmates , i wish you all the best in the choices of courses u all have recieved. hope all bodes well and keep in touch.

i'll be heading to the hospital tml morning to accompany a friend get discharged cause she has a irresponsible man who wont be able to do so. its aight. i got your back girl . and your front.

im out.

i didnt fare too well for O's.

it doesnt really bother me uh. i mean, im bummed but i believe there are other ways to reach what i dream of.

the only thing that sucks right now is that giogio is sick. i have never seen her like this. trembling, staying put in one place and not following me around. i just hope its nothing serious.

i love my giogio.

the O level results release are drawing closer and this is making me rather......... ......... nervous.
I've already planned out two fool-proof paths.

a) if i make it to poly, then yay me! But i won't settle for just any course. The course has to be of mine liking or at least something i can relate to.

b) if i dont make it (ppl keep telling me, no no, you'll make it. oh come on! be realistic ppl) then i have considered going to MDIS to take up mass comm.

i talked it over with daddy and he's a-okay with it. thank god he isnt cutting short on my education.

I don't know whats the deal with people telling me to stay away from RP. It's a perfectly okay school plus, it has the best facilities. Some people say it isnt recognised or bla bla bla, but the way i see it, its still a government school and schools need time to gain recognition. This school is not as old as SP or NP so why the big hoo-haa?

Moving on, i can't wait for the weekends!
i hate national service.

needed to run some errands over at causeway today. i don't know why but i felt like doing it alone. Well, actually liyana was supposed to go with me but she was really tired so i ended up going alone and it felt kinda good. Some self-dicovery/rejuvenation kind of ish.

I bought a new belly stud. Its bright green with bling blings.

that's all i have for now. Oh i was wndering if anyone knows where they sell workout videos? cause i've tried video stores like video-ez but they don't sell those.

i was looking through photos and realised i look good with jet-black hair. haha. nabey. self-praise.

i can't wait to see what 2009 has in store for me.
i have a few resolutions in store for myself. a few can't be posted here but here are some :

1. tone my body (don't laugh)
2. learn a new language or the guitars
3. donate blood
4. enrol in a driving licence( 3 and 4 only happens after my bday)
5. get a job
6. be a member of th SPCA (!!)
7. to not be afraid to get down and dirty.

LOL. these are the few uh. i have zillions more.

bye.

Resolutions? I have plenty.

my celebration was better than expected.

i thought it was just gg to be fireworks-watching and gg all ooo and aaaa over it.
but i had more than that!

i started th day by pondering on what to wear. i wanted to wear something bright cause relatives in brasil always told me that bright symbolises starting the year on a good foot and having a good year etc etc. its no wonder everyone wears white during NY in brasil. But i ended up wearing a lot of black. i felt better in the particular clothing i was in and it was coincidentally black. screw it uh. the year is what i make of it. plus, my top was white. couldn't be that bad. ok im talking too much about apparels.

ANYHOOS, i met up with moozie and he took a cab down to downtown east. We met his sis and co. and had dinner. I had ayam penyet(: which by the way sounds damn funny in english; smashed chicken. I envision animal cruelty. After dinner, we walked around aimlessly which can be very fun when you are very full and not wanting to think of what to do. We stopped by this shop and i'm sure everyone has seen this before but i forgot what it's called. It's some painting thingy that u can stick on windows etc. A picture would clear things out:

I did a sailormoon keychain thingy but i had to use paint and not the gluey thing u see in the picture. I wasn't having fun so i passed it to moozie to do and got myself a house picture! hehe. Moozie did a bad job with the painting. Let's just say sailormoon is now a black with blonde hair. ooo. Nasty girl she is.

Too bad i can't show you the picture of the wonderful house i painted. I pasted it on moozie's wardrobe cause he forced me to use the dumb keychain. it snapped off anyway. Thank God.

Finally, we realised that it was not as early as we thought it was and we needed to head down to marina to book our movie. ASAP. cabbed down and moozie's sis daughter slept on my lap. so adorable. she had just finished crying (not due to me) and did this heavy breathing sounds once in a while.

she is so adorable and mimicks everthing you say if you ask her to. she is really obedient too. not like a wild child. After booking the tickets (to watch all the way at plaza sing cause marina doesnt have movies after 12 apparantly. like wtf.) we waited and snapped pictures and fagged till the fireworks started.


And when it did, WOW.

i felt like it was right above me. like i had front row seats to a game. i got to see every single blast. any closer and i would have been burnt.




I look kinda fat in this picture but i just had to post this cause moozie looks like the princess in starwars with her bunned hair. i forgot her name. but the fireworks did him no justice. he looks kinda hot in buns.

After the big hoohaa, we took a bus to plaza sing cause we had already spent such a fortune on cab fares. We sat at starbucks for a while and then proceeded to watch YESMAN!

Honestly, the storyline of this movie isnt anything extravagent BUT! i really really can relate to this movie. i feel like a YESwoman. i've always wanted to do the kinda things he does. learn the guitar, bunjee jump, fly a damn plane, learn a new language. helping ppl out. I WANT THOSE!

and i will . With that, i end my post. TCHAU!