but what if there were more to this.

i just have not been hit by the fact that school starts tomorrow.

tomorrow people! tomorrow!

i can already see myself in the future, missing school.

and i think im coming to like this feeling.

this rush of anxiety yet inability to believe.

like a friend said:

"so tmrw will be the second half of the school semester in your final year

as a secondary school student. prepared for it?"

its my final year.

i have never seen it that way.

its just too fast.

so anyway, i woke up at 6pm today.

dont ask me why

ok well i slept at 5 last night. or morning for that matter.

i couldnt sleep! and this is becoming a habit.

if this goes on, i dont think school will benefit me.

so....

i have decided to take sleeping pills.

im a bit psyched about it since marilyn monroe died due to overdosing it.

but i guess popping one or two would do no harm right. right.right.